Finishing

Finishing

 

This is my current working space. The place I’ve been sitting and working on finishing. I’ve this quirk in my personality that has kept me from finishing a writing project. It’s always been easy for me to write. I love to write.

However, the editing , rewriting and doing it all over again has intimidated me to the point that I lay it down and begin working on a new project.

Putting in the hard time it takes to finish a book and bring it to print has terrified me. I am afraid of releasing that part of me to the world. I’m afraid of what someone might think or say about it.

But, I’m learning a new way of thinking. I have found myself in conversations lately and hear myself “but, God”. I can face the biggest mountain and wonder how in the world this mountain that is too big to go around and too tall to climb over, can possible be conquered.

“But, God.”

Over and over again in the story of Janet, the impossible loomed ahead. Scary. Lonely. Creating great doubt in me.

Hopelessness.

Helplessness.

“But, God”.

Over and over again in this story of Janet, God showed up. I spend a lot of time in scripture. I love the word of God. It is alive and ever-changing. God knows what I need to hear from His word at the perfect time. Even when it is one of the most familiar to me, reading it one more time can give me an insight I would never have discovered had I not been facing that mountain in that time.

This is where I have learned to trust. To believe.

This is where my hopelessness and helplessness turned to . . . 

hopefulness . . . 

helpfulness . . . 

And it is there in those “but, God” moments that I began to feel a balance I had never known. 

God does that for us. 

In these days, sitting at this table, I feel Him near. I’m understanding how He has been preparing me for this time. For over six decades. 

Sometimes, I laugh at what a slow learner I am, “but, God” – His timing is perfect. And I rest in that.

God sent Jesus to earth with a plan. Jesus knew the plan. He knew what the next years of his life would require of Him. He never waned from the plan of bringing the message of forgiveness and redemption to the world. When the hard days came, He stayed faithful to His Father and the eternal plan. 

John 19:28-30

Later Jesus said, “I am thirsty.” He knew that everything was now finished. He knew that what Scripture said must come true. A jar of wine vinegar was there. So they soaked a sponge in it. They put the sponge on a stem of the hyssop plant. Then they lifted it up to Jesus’ lips. After Jesus drank he said, “It is finished.” Then he bowed his head and died. 

I want to finish the work God has given me. He gave me everything I need to be faithful to the eternal cause. You have these gifts too. He created each of us with the exact formula to faithfully serve Him. Each unique, we, together, complete the beautiful plan He has.

Jesus did every part of what God asked of Him. I pray you and I will be willing to do the same. 

I’m believing this is the project I am going to finish and this is the one that will be my first-born project. Stay tuned for exciting things heading out into the world. (In sharing this I am now holding myself accountable to do the very thing that 😱 scares me). Thanks for being a sweet part of this community. 😊🎉

You are deeply appreciated here.

Janet