Web Failure – Day 29

When I came across this scripture recently, it was new to me. My first response was to change “they” to “I”.

I want to remember the days when I didn’t feel so close to God – when I felt fragile. When I could not depend on anyone or anything to give me the strength I needed to carry on with life.

When everything feels so fragile. I really get it. I struggle hard with the heaviness of it some days. With the loneliness of loss. Feeling like all of Janet was/is about to crumble into a pile of sawdust to be scattered to the wind. Gone and forgotten.

What lies. We have to pray for discernment, for wisdom and for strength to lean on God’s strength – not our own or we will be like everyone this scripture is talking about.

Recently I was with my aunt who will soon be 89. We had finished dinner and were walking arm in arm down the street. She was telling me about her long time friend and telling me stories about good times they had. My aunt was laughing and even giggling as she was remembering. I was thinking they were making plans for their next grand adventure, when suddenly, she sighed, “We had such fun all those years.” After a long pause, “Then, she died.” Silence. We continued walking – now in a sweet silence – she smiling with her memories and me, reminded no one is exempt – especially as we become older. Death seems so natural – for the elderly.

Sadly, oh, so sadly, life is too fragile to play by our design – our rules.

It has no boundaries.

But – the big but – our God will and does provide the foundation we need. We won’t end up losing our balance and falling to the ground because the fragile spider web gave way.

As this series on grief is winding down, I pray you are inspired to seek God in new ways. I pray you will have the courage to answer God in His desire to walk closely with you. Call out to Him. Lean on Him. Cry to Him. Yell at Him. Talk to Him. Tell Him everything.

We are all going to experience grief at some point in our lives.

So, put your own name right here, in this scripture –  “I, ______, will trust in, rely on, lean on and cling to, You, God, the solid foundation.

“Father, we gratefully accept Your invitation to lean on You – trust in You and cling to You. The foundation we stand on when we can’t stand on  our own. Please comfort us. May we understand how much You love us. Ease our pain as we learn to trust You. We know it takes time – this is a process – but You aren’t. You are the one God, the one who loves us and the one who has experienced the same pain. He truly understands when no one else does – or the world thinks we should be “doing” this differently than we are. We love You, Lord. Amen.”